Posts Tagged Jillian Michaels
Life After The Biggest Loser…. Part 2
Posted by Matt Hoover in General on January 22nd, 2010
Yesterday I talked about what it is like having people know you and how contestants are real people and how we should all be nice to one another and give hugs. Well, that is kind of what I talked about. Today I am going to talk about how The Biggest Loser changed me personally.
Before I went on the show I was angry. As most people know, I was a college wrestler at The University of Iowa. I pretty much blew it there. It wasn’t a talent issue, it was a commitment issue. I was more committed to partying and telling people I was a wrestler than I was to training and actually being a wrestler.
Long story short, I quit the team and left school only a few credits short of a degree. I had never quit anything in my life up until that point and once I learned how easy it was to quit, it got easier and easier for me to do so. I went from being a 177 pound athlete to over 350 pounds in a very short time. The bigger I got, the less I cared.
I drank a lot and ate a lot. Prior to going on the show it was not uncommon for me to put down two bottles of rum in one night. I don’t know what happened after they were gone. I just know that I would wake up and they were gone. Food was something that I used to medicate when I couldn’t drink.
I would go through the McDonald’s drive through and order two value meals. Even though I knew I was going to eat both of them, I thought maybe the person handing me the food would think I was getting them for two people. The other thing that I use to do was eat them really fast. Like somehow if I ate really fast the calories wouldn’t count! I will talk more about this at length on another day and how those habits still affect me today.
My friends knew me as a Chris Farley type (I did have a spot on impression) who was the happy, fat, drunk guy. I had lots of friends that were girls but none that were really interested in being my girlfriend. I became resigned to the fact that this was how my life was going to be. After all, I deserved it for blowing it at Iowa. Let me summarize my life in just a couple words. I was a miserable mess.
Fast forward. I show up on the ranch weighing 339 pounds. You may not believe it but I actually lost weight before taping began because while we were sequestered before the show I couldn’t drink. I also didn’t want to look like a pig so I didn’t eat very much. Kind of ironic isn’t it? I weighed over 300 pounds but didn’t want people to know I ate bad!
Even though I was obese I thought I could still do things like I did when I was a college wrestler. I couldn’t. It was a deflating moment. I finally realized how bad things had gotten for me. The infamous clip of Jillian and I talking or should I say her talking and me bawling my eyes out has recieved several thousand hits on Youtube. As rough as it was, that breakdown was the beginning of my transformation on the inside.
I was still angry, still walking around with a chip on my shoulder and still fat, but I was beginning to change whether I knew it or not. Like I have said before, when I was on the ranch we didn’t have TV, internet, magazines, or much else besides gym equipment to keep us occupied. What I did have was myself.
Sometimes being alone with yourself is very frightening. Especially if you have no idea who you are or that the person you thought you were really isn’t you at all. When I was finally forced to be alone and deal with my issues I went through the same range of emotions that people go through when they experience a loss or a death of someone close to them.
Along with losing weight I was losing years of baggage and in essence, my old self. It wasn’t until I arrived home after being on the ranch for all those months by myself that I realized just how much I had changed.
See you tomorrow!
The Reality of Reality Weight Loss….
Posted by Matt Hoover in General on January 20th, 2010
I seriously just erased an entire blog because I didn’t like the way it sounded when I read it. I want to talk about some of the realities of being a contestant on The Biggest Loser but I don’t want to bash the show. I want to talk about what life is like after but don’t want to sound like I am making excuses. Here is what I am going to do. I am going to type what I am thinking and not worry about what others say and here’s why.
I WAS THERE! I was actually on the show and know what it has been like for me. I can only speak for myself and what I have experienced. There have been 7 seasons since I was on the show. Things may or may not have changed and just like any other experience in life, people who have been in the same situation can have dramatically different experiences.
I want to talk about the big topic of discussion that I have been reading a lot about lately. In a recent magazine article, I read about the type of support available to contestants after leaving the show. Back when I won there wasn’t a whole lot. Please remember that I was on in the infancy stage of BL. Before the show was as big as it is today. None of us, especially the producers, could have ever imagined what BL was to become.
That being said, I don’t think anyone could have imagined the impact being on the show would have on an individual and their life after being on the show. I have talked to recent contestants and am glad to hear that they have access to support. I am lucky in that I met my wife on the show and we could lean on each other. I can’t imagine going home to a spouse who had no idea what kind of transformation I had just gone through. Many people have had to do just that. They have had to go home and explain why they “seem different” or why they choose to no longer do some of the things they use to. Some people lose friends and some even spouses.
One of the great things about being on BL is that you learn to rely on yourself. One of the bad things about being on BL is that sometimes you start to rely on yourself too much. Rather than seek out help, which seems to be available now, we (I) just assume that it was up to us to fix it. After all, I lost the weight I can deal with this, whatever “this” may be.
I was bitter for a long time toward Jillian after the show because I didn’t feel like I got any support from her after the show. The reason being is that after the finale, I never talked to her again. I don’t know why or if I did something to upset her, we just have never connected again. It was dissapointing to me. When I gained weight I got embarrassed and thought maybe that is why we haven’t talked.
Just this past week we appeared on the Joy Behar show which Jillian was also on. I was nervous and thought “How is this gonna go?” We still didn’t get a chance to talk. During the show she said something that the casual viewer would have not picked up on. It was a simple comment about me completing the Ironman World Championship triathlon. When we left the building I told my wife that I wasn’t angry anymore. In fact, after she said what she said I realized something. I had been acting immature.
Let me use yet another analogy. Yesterday it was prison, today it’s highschool.
Almost every highschool team has a senior star. The kid who the coaches have spent hours, even years, developing and coaching. The reason this athlete has gotten to the level of being the star is because they listened to their coaches and worked hard. Let’s say this kid leads his team to a state title in their sport.
They go home and give a speech to the fans in their hometown. The people who have watched them progress into the athlete they have become are all there. The kid more than likely thanks the fans, their parents, and lastly their coaches. Everyone in the gym quietly wonders what is going to be like next year without this athlete on the team.
Guess what, a new kid will step into the old stars place! Want to know why? Because a good coach knows that they have a job to do. They can’t sit around worrying about whether or not the star that just graduated is going to make it on their own. A good coach prepares their athletes to live well after their time on the team has concluded. Of course from time to time they may think about some of the kids they coached in the past, but they have a job to do and a new group of kids to focus on. It is up to the athlete to implement the lessons they learned from their coach.
If you are having a tough time trying to figure out how this relates to BL and specifically my and Jillian’s relationship or lack thereof, let me break it down for you.
Jillian has a job to do. Her job is to train the contestants and get them to lose the most amount of weight possible while they are working with her. I know she genuinely cares about the contestants but she has now trained hundreds of contestants. It isn’t an option for her to personally check in on all of us. As much as I wish she could, it isn’t feasable and to tell the truth is a little selfish on my part. That day, after the show, I realized that even though Jillian and I haven’t talked since the finale of my season, she still cares enough to keep tabs on what I have been doing. Hearing her make that brief statement on Joy’s show was freeing.
Jillian taught me a lot, but just as the coach of any successful team she has to focus on the team she has currently. What I have to do now is implement the lessons I learned from her and take care of myself like a big boy.
See you tomorrow!
In Defense of Erik Chopin…..Season 3 Biggest Loser
Posted by Matt Hoover in General on January 19th, 2010
I don’t want to count calories! I don’t like to count calories! I have to count calories! It has finally sunken in that I am not blessed with a body that allows me to work out and then eat anything I want. It is no secret that I have struggled with my weight since winning The Biggest Loser. I want to talk about it today.
With all the controversy as of late about The Biggest Loser I have decided to give my two cents. Many people who follow the Biggest Loser also tuned in to see the Discovery channel special on Erik Chopin, the winner of season 3, who has put back on a good chunk of his weight that he lost on the show. After reading some of the comments that people were writing about his episode I felt it necessary to talk about a few things.
One of the things that I saw over and over was a pretty nasty comment about how he wasted his opportunity and it was especially disgraceful since he won money. First, he didn’t waste his opportunity. He won the show! I want people to understand that being on The Biggest Loser and losing weight in that environment is completely different than doing it in the real world.
People, including myself, get the results they do because the only thing they have to do is work on losing weight. They don’t have to go to work, or take care of their kids, they only have one thing to do and that is lose weight. When I was on the ranch there was no television, no internet, no magazines, no phone calls, in essence no distractions. ANY person in that environment can lose that kind of weight.
Here is the thing about being on the show. I have never been to prison, but I imagine that coming home from BL is a little like being released from prison. Although one may go through a serious transformation and may see the error of their ways, the minute they leave that structured and regimented environment, they are faced with many of the same temptations they faced before they went in. Even though the individual may have undergone a significant transformation both physically and mentally while away, they are returning home to people who may not have done any changing.
The thing about being on the show is that after you come home you are still working toward the goal of winning the cash prize at the finale. To use the prison analogy, you are on probation upon release. But what happens when you get off probation, in effect step on the scale for the last time? Many criminals tend to go back to their old ways. On The Biggest Loser, many begin to think that their struggle with weight is over, that they are rehabilitated. I did!
There is certain euphoria that comes with winning a reality show and all of the sudden becoming a “celebrity”. For a while that euphoria seems to be enough to help you want to stay on track, you are eager to show people how great you are doing since being on the show. After a while the cameras fade and real life sets in. It is at that time that a few past winners began to lose focus.
For me, the thinking was like this. “At least I’ve kept off 120 pounds… at least I’ve kept off 110… at least I’ve kept off…” It is a vicious pattern because after losing so much weight I kind of felt like I deserved to gain a little weight. That right there was a problem in my thinking. I was setting myself up to gain weight again and I did.
I am going to spend the rest of this week sharing my thoughts on this and what life is like for a “weight loss celebrity”
See you tomorrow!
Joy Behar Show Experience…
Posted by Matt Hoover in General on January 14th, 2010
Yesterday my wife and I had the opportunity to be on the Joy Behar Show. We were on with Jillian Michaels, the trainer from The Biggest Loseras well as past contestant Bill Germanakos.
We were excited and a little nervous. Lately there seems to be some controversy going on as to whether or not The Biggest Loser is healthy and if they provide the support that contestants need after leaving the ranch. In the pre-show interview I got the feeling, based on the questions, that they were digging for some dirt. We don’t give that out!
The nervousness come from two things. First, I got blindsided on Oprah last year. I went on the show expecting to talk about all of the great things going on in my life and found out on live television that I was being the example of a past Biggest Loser contestants who hadn’t been successful with their weight loss.
Long story short, we weren’t sure if we were going on Joy’s show to talk about good things or talk about the fact that we aren’t the same weight we were at the finale nearly five years ago. The second reason I was a little nervous was because I hadn’t talked to Jillian since the finale of our season, again, nearly five years ago.
We got to the satellite location and got camera ready. When the show first began we had a live feed so we could see Joy in New York. Then about one minute into the interview the screen went blank and we couldn’t see anything. It was a little like talking to the great and powerful OZ in the Wizard of Oz. We could hear Joy talking but had no idea who she was talking to.
Bill was in studio so he did most of the talking because, as watching the show confirmed, Joy would look at him when asking a question. Most of the interviews we do by satellite the interviewer will address us when asking a question so you know when to talk. This experience taught Suzy and I that when doing an interview via satellite with no live feed, we need to be assertive and make sure that we give ourselves the opportunity to be heard.
As far as having not talked to Jillian in years, I still haven’t. Our piece was rather short and we didn’t get a chance to chat. The cool thing for me was that she commented on how I was obviously still fit considering I finished the Ironman in Kona a couple months ago. It felt good to hear her say that.
To be honest, we have been a part of better interviews but to still be out there and having the opportunity to appear regularly on national television shows that we have done a good job of living our lives the right way. No we aren’t the same weight we were at the finale but we live healthy, active lives and are happy with who we are.
