I’ve been gone for a while. Some people will have noticed, some will not. I haven’t really been gone, I just haven’t felt like blogging. It’s ironic that one of the things that I enjoy doing and something that gives me accountability is one of the things that I felt like I didn’t want to do.
When compared to my past, this little funk has been mild. I didn’t go on any huge binges, I didn’t stop working out, I didn’t gain 30 pounds. I actually lost weight. I wish I had some great reason as to why I took some time off, but I don’t.
What I have realized is that when I slide into a little funk the first thing that I do is stop doing the things that I know help me to be successful. Blogging for one, being visible for two. What do I mean by being visible? For me, it means letting people see what I am up to, both physically and on line through social media. I
It seems that when I slide back I try to cover it up. I am in a place where people look to me for advice and at times inspiration. When I am not feeling 100% mentally I feel like I am letting people down. Recently, I have decided that I may be letting people down by not letting them see my personal struggles.
We can all learn from each other. I am human, with all the faults and hang-ups that many of us have. When I share my struggles, I am able to let others see how they can make changes as well.
Here is the most important thing that I learned from my hiatus. Many times when things are rough in our lives, we stop doing the very things that we know we need to do in order to put a stop to our slide downward. I think we do this because it gives us a reason for why things may be less than ideal. It gives us something to blame.
Rather than acknowledge our true feelings and examining them, we cover them up with a superficial reason as to why things are the way they are. More than that, we don’t allow ourselves to feel our feelings and learn from them. If we are feeling a certain way there is probably a reason for it. It could be fear, anger, disappointment, or any other negative emotion that we have been programmed to feel are “bad”. Feelings and emotions aren’t “bad” sometimes it is the way we deal with them that is.
I am going to focus on the root of my feelings and what I need to learn and change. I will end this cycle of stopping the very things that I know I need to do in order to work through my feelings and use those tools to stop the downward slide that we all go through from time to time.
I WILL see you tomorrow!
#1 by lyndeeu - August 30th, 2010 at 21:09
thanks for this matt. it’s nice to know i’m not the only one that hits a funk once in awhile. even when things are going great, i find myself in a funk and begin to sabotage.